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It’s been a while

I am sitting on the couch at a holiday house in Orford. We have taken 5 days away as a family before school starts as a way of regrouping after quite a frenetic time in Poatina during January.

It was great to catch up on a bit of sleep (I woke up at midday!) and go fishing with the kids this afternoon (we caught 9 fish and one of them was big enough to keep!). It is also a great chance to take stock.

I’m not sure whether you have noticed, but I have been blogging a lot less lately.

This blog has been an important outlet for me as I wrestle with faith and life, however life seems to have been moving at such a pace that blogging has not been so high on the priority list.

That’s not to say that I have been learning less. In fact I feel as though the learning curve has been a lot steeper over the past few months.

As I have already written, at Fusion’s conference in September I was elected with two others to the newly formed “National Directorate”, with  a particular focus on helping the Fusion movement transition to the next phase of its life.

I have been finding the role quite stretching and extremely engaging. I often feel inadequate and have been having to lean on God more than any other time I  can remember. Most often I am writing in my journal that I feel scared and need help.

I feel like Jesus has been carrying me for the last 18 months, and I have been getting to know Him in a more real and tangible way than I could have imagined before that.

I have also discovered just how far I have to go. So often the last thing I want, is to trust and so often I find that what I thought was faith turns out to be presumption.

Life is a journey. I don’t know what this year actually holds but I am looking forward to it.

I know I still have a lot to learn but my sense is that God will continue to carry me, despite myself.

I’m looking forward to being part of the Arrow Leadership course . I’m going to enjoy some new input and fellowship with others who are also on the journey of leadership.

I am also looking forward to working on some of my goals for the year.

I’m hoping to keep writing and finish the couple of books I have on the go at the moment.

I am also hoping to spend more time with my kids than I did last year and I know I have to seriously do something about my weight.

I hope to blog a bit more regularly, but I don’t think it will be every day. I appreciate the feedback so many people have given me about the blog, and now the book. I wish I could have more of the answers, but it seems that the questions are where most of us live – and that’s o.k.

Thanks for your company.